Need motivation


So a couple things…

- I talked it over with Rob about my book and he reassured me that even though they may look like they are similar they aren’t really. Basically he pointed out facts in the book I am reading and compared them with other books and movies and he basically said that just because it has a common aspect in the book doesn’t mean that they are really that similar. I know it sounds confusing the way I am saying it here but good news is I am still going to write my novel.. When I ever get the time… lol.

-I have also sucked working out this month. My eating has been that great either. I think when I start to gain a pound or two I get discouraged, but the fact is that I am the one causing the weight gain by not working out and by not eating healthy. I really wish there was an easier way to lose weight. It’s hard work and I hate it! but I am tired of being this way and I need to just get my ass in gear. So bright and early tomorrow morning, that way I will get at least 1 hour of uninterrupted work out while the kids are sleeping. Hopefully Kairi gets the message and doesn’t wake up 10 minutes after I start the damn thing and want to nurse for the sake of nursing. 6:00 am here I come.

- My house is a disaster. I really did try and keep up, stupid laundry and dishes are non stop and I just can’t seem to want to do any of it. What with al 5 kids here this weekend and us going to visit some friends on Saturday it was kind of a busy weekend.. But I am home all day and I am hoping to at least get the dishes and the rest of the laundry done… Wish me luck I suppose.

And here ends my blog as Kairi has now started crying… Feeding time….

Novel similarities..


So I am currently reading a series, there are about maybe 12 novels in it so far. Each book isn’t to long so it isn’t hard to get through them and they are more geared to the teens or young adult and I don’t know if I still qualify as young. lol

In reading that series and also trying to write my own novel, which by the way both are the same type of genre. It has come to my attention (no one pointed it out I just started to see it) that there are similarities to my novel and the series I am writing. Some of them are very obvious and some are not, but with everything that is similar it is also very different, I am unsure of what to do at this time and I haven’t talked to rob about it yet, but I plan to tonight. I’m wondering what to do, because I never intentionally tried to copy this series or have to many similarities. Maybe I did it without even knowing it, who knows. There are things in my book that I wrote about even before reading it, so I guess that makes me feel a little better that two people can have similar ideas but use them differently.

I’m still struggling with the fact that I have been writing this so called novel for maybe 3 years now and I may have to change a whole bunch of crap or stop it all together. Who knows I may just write it and get a friend of mine to read it who has also read the house of night series and see what she has to say.

I do have another novel idea floating around but for all I know that idea was copied from someone else who is already published.

Blah.. thats how I feel… and I little disappointed.

Well hopefully I can resolve this soon and figure out where to go from here….

Set Back


So today was another weigh in day and I kind of expected a tiny bit of a weight gain. It was a crap week with no work out and I ate some junk here and there. So the number of 216.6 wasn’t a big shocker for me. This week though it’s back to eating healthy and exercising.

I found a picture of me when I was 18 and I was skinny, I have to say probably anywhere between 150 and 170. I know my body will never look like that again as I have been pregnant 4 times and my body has changed. I just hope that I can slim down so I don’t have back boobs and large love handles.

I can’t wait for the weather to really warm up and the ground to not be so soggy. I’m going to start going for walks by myself or with just Kairi in the stroller, it’s kind of hard to feel like you are having a good walk/work out when you have to stop and wait for your walking 3 year old. I’m also going to talk to Rob and see when I can get a decent pair of running shoes. My other goal that I want to do is to be able to run.

On to other news, I finally finished chapter 10 outline, that damn chapter was causing me major issues. I was stuck for a bit but eventually I just sat down and powered through it. I already have an idea of what I want chapter 11 to be like so that shouldn’t be to hard. By the end of this year I am hoping to have the outline done for my novel(s) and already be working on the actual dialogue and all the fun stuff like that.

Well I need to go start to get ready to go pick up the boys from school.

Hope this week is good for everyone in whatever they are doing:)

SLEEP!!! or lack there of.


How is it that my loving husband gets to go to bed before I do, wake up after me and then have a damn nap before he goes to work. NOT EVEN AN HOUR AFTER HE GETS HOME!!!! How is his sleep more important then mine. Is it because he works?????? Well Damn it I need to feel rested and get some damn sleep as well! I am taking care of his children. You know actual life depends on me. Not only that but I have to leave the house and take 4-5 ┬ábusses with 3 – 5 children. I think that deserves a nap or two.

But my sleep is not as important as his.


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